Sunday, February 15, 2009

Valentines Day Love

I drove 9 and a half hours to be with the love of my life for Valentines day. From Rhode Island to Virginia. And I am an anxious driver soooo Driving 9 and a half hours is a big deal for me. I only stopped twice! And not to mention the 20 something dollars in tolls! Outrageous.

But I suppose it was worth it, although right now we've been in the library since noon and it's now 6 oclock. I don't know how he does this. He works so hard, and I can't help but feel selfish and want to cuddle and leave this stupid library. But I'm sitting here blogging, pretending that i'm actually trying to do some work.

It was so nice the first day I was here. About 65 degress and sooo sunny. Sunshine all around. But then it got cold. =\ chilly, but not frigid as it is in RI. It's still nice to be here though. Meet his friends, etc. I know he appreciates my visit. I cannot wait till I'm down here full time wiht him. That's my task for tomorrow. Call appartment places. =\ hmmmm Idk how to do that at all. lol

oh well we'll see how it goes.
That's all for now.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Hmm... Forever until Divorce?

Looks like we all make mistakes, expensive, big mistakes (hey I've been there and my expensive mistake is sitting in my garage, needing an oil change) but we all make 'em. Looks like my big sis made hers. Like she didn't have enough on her plate. How unfair that now, on top of it all, she must deal with a good-for-nothin' stupid head like Ben. Ugh. Talk about frustration!

The puppy is staying with me starting tomorrow though, so hopefully i'll update with that...


P.S. That's another thing I forgot to mention about 2009. I want to start blogging more. Once a week is my goal, and then hopefully more often. =D No one reads it but its nice to know that there is always a possibility of someone reading it. Right???

Ring in the New Year.

Hello 2009.

Two thousand and eight was a rough one. Working backwards,I caught MRSA from the last hospital stay, which was mentally tough as well as physically tough; my body just didn't want to seem to fight it off. I became extremely depressed beginning of fall semester =\ which didn't aid my health any. I missed Kyle, I was trying to cope with many, hard, life-awakening thoughts/decisions about my future. [Thank god for therapy now... yay!] I fell behind in school work, the whole deal. Missed all of october because I was in the hospital. Just not a good time.

Summer sucked because I was underpaid, I always overwork. Spring was tough because I felt so alone without friends. Kyle had gone back to school so I didn't even have the comfort of having him around.

Looking back there are things I wish I did differently, and things I am proud of. I am proud that I was able to improve my lung function 15% over the summer, and get it out of the 50's. I am happy that I had so many fun times with kyle and that I stayed active. I am grateful that I learned all my hard life lessons early.

I look where I am now, a month into the new year, and I am proud to see how far I've come. What I have accomplished. A year is a long time, and you can achieve a lot if you put your mind to it. I grew up a lot last year and I believe that was the best thing that happened to me. I matured, and finally accepted it and grew up. Granted, I still have a LOT of growing up still to do, but I'm more willing to try.

2009 holds many expectations and high hopes for me!!! By the end of '09 I hope to accomplish most, if not all of the following:
Finish up my first year at WGU. Becoming that much closer to an elementary school teacher.
Moved to Virginia, switching clinics, doctors, etc. [this step is scary!!! but oh so exciting]
Improve my mental state
Start being more physically active
Love my boyfriend every single day and tell him how great he is.

haha , the last one seems cheesy but its true. I really want to show him that I am in it for the long haul, that I'm working to be together too. I can hold my own. Showing him that I care enough about our future to do what's best, not necessarily what I want to do (because who wants to do meds when you could sleep?) but rather what i need to do.

So here's to a new year. Let it be a great one.