Monday, April 9, 2012

Here we go again.

I was doing awesome. I was 6 days into a 100% compliant schedule and I was feeling GREAT. I was rockin' my treatments and even remember that pesky MWF dose of azyithromycin.

And then it happened. I woke up on Saturday with an intense motivation for that day's planned activity: fixing up the porch! Or at least, the very early beginning steps. It wasn't until almost 8:30 that I realized what I had done. I missed my morning treatments! ALL of them! Pills, nebs, the whole kittencaboodle.

Instead of picking myself right back up, I let it get to me. I felt defeated and as I did my nighttime treatments I tried to stay positive but I could feel the insecurities and the guilt creep back in. By sunday the indifference had rolled around. I missed Sunday and Monday(today's) morning treatments.

All I have to say is enough. Just enough. I will pick myself back up, dust myself off and try again. I got 6 days down, let's shoot for 7. I may have missed this morning's doses but tomorrow is a new day, and I still have tonight, so you better believe I'll be adding in a few extra vesting minutes.

I'll get there. One of these days I'll get there.


cindy baldwin said...

I read a book last year that had an awesome Chinese proverb I've thought of a lot since then - "80% is perfection." The book (a book about making & living up to goals we set) pointed out that almost nobody is able to do something 100%, 100% of the time, but that if we strive for 80% we're still doing a lot better than we were before and not getting so stressed when we mess up!

So that's kind of what I've striven for in my life since then, in all areas. I'm really compliant out of long years of habit... I almost never miss a treatment. But every now and then, I do. And I figure hey - if I felt good enough that I wasn't gasping for breath, then I'll take it as a good sign that I could forget my treatment! ;) Not to mention, a project like fixing up the porch probably counted as quite a bit of exercise!

cindy baldwin said...

Oh and hey! Could I add your blog to the cf blogroll?

Gem said...

Don't feel guilty about missing a treatment. It happens to us all from time to time and it's not as though you remembered and decided against doing them, you genuinely forgot.

Like you said, tomorrow is a new day, start a fresh.

Keep going! You're doing awesome :D


Amanda said...

Don't get discouraged; baby steps :) Also, PLEASE try to remember lol? I want to keep youuuuuu! <3 Ps. I updated again!