“When someone that you love dies..it's like fireworks suddenly burning out in the sky and everything going black.” - Muriel Barbery, The Elegance of the Hedgehog
And suddenly, all that's left is the spectacular show you can only call upon in your mind. Smoky shadows linger, merely the dust the fireworks left behind, and if you stand too close the smog will fill your lungs, and burn your eyes.
Yet, somehow you need this forever darkness to truly appreciate the beauty and light that you were able to see.
Death walks a fine line of letting go and holding on. Holding onto the visions engrained into your mind, like the lingering imagine of fireworks behind your eyelids; all the while, gingerly balancing the courage to know in your heart, that no matter how beautiful the show was, it's over. We will move on, and we will see more fireworks. We will continue to live, but we shall never forget.
"...maybe that's what life is about: there's a lot of despair, but also the odd moment of beauty, where time is no longer the same...[like] something suspended, and elsewhere...an always within a never. Yes, that's it, an always within a never." - Muriel Barbery, The Elegance of the Hedgehog
You're life was spectacularly beautiful. You will be missed by many. Breathe easy lovely lady, breathe easy always.