To plan or not to plan, that's the question

Today was a day where nothing goes as planned. Granted I hadn't planned to do much today, but everything just kinda went awry. I woke up later than planned, of course, but not too late. Round 9:15 or so. Got a late start, but I managed to do all my meds before going to my 10:30 class --which I was about 10 minutes late to because someone didn't understand the speed limit was 55 not 25... grrrrrrrrrr old people driving. GAH.

Then I didn't eat breakfast so that threw me off, but I went home to shower, then by the time I was showered, dressed, rounded up the ferrets it was lunch time, and I rushed to Dunkin Donuts (sort of the plan for breakfast...) then I had to pick up Emily for her ortho appointment then I was supposed to drop her off at school again but we went out for chinese food afterwards, then I dropped her off for choir. So she got to skip science. Points for Beth. Which is good because I had been getting in her trouble the past couple of weeks.

Then I went straight to the house so Allen could eat the leftover chinese because he stayed home AGAIN from school. That little faker. "Oh *FORCED COUGHING HERE* I'm siiiiiick. " Bologna. I threw in some laundry, watch a couple episodes of shear genius. Allen didn't want to do anything with me. BOO. Not even a bike ride. AND it was gorgeous out today so I was a little upset but hey if he wants to play the 'sick' card and play a video game all day for 3 days I'll let him.

I was supposed to go out to dinner with Emily&Allen&everyone but I was feeling "off" and it just didn't seem like a good idea. I had done any insulin all day, barely checked my sugars, but they were all normal levels each time I checked so I have no idea what was going on, but I just didn't feel 'right'. I felt icky all over, but nothing in particular. SO bizarre.

Ate a little pasta at home while obsessing over puppies in the area =( Wanting a puppy so badly it hurts. But we decided that we'll get a puppy when we move away to grad school, because we'll rent a house with a yard or that's the plan, but as we learned today plans don't necessarily work out the way you PLAN THEM TO. hahaha that made me chuckle.

Skyped with Juliepie, she's doing better. Thank goodness. Read my post on the CF forum. but I wrote a PS to her on it so she didn't take it the wrong way or anything which is good.

Still coughing a little more and its making me a little nervous but thankfully clinic is on friday so maybe we'll just continue antibiotics? Who knows. It's all just a game. You get good chunks of time, and not so good chunks of time. I just wish the good chunks lasted longer.

My goal for tomorrow is to mail a letter to Gen & Ty baby. =D I wrote them this 3 pager today while waiting at the ortho and I'm excited to send it off. A nice little surprise for them.

Oh and I looked up pictures of RI's flooding. EPIC. I've never seen so much water in the state before. It's absolutely insane. Glad I had sunshine in sunny & warm VA. Yay for an actual spring time, and not rainy rainy dreary FLOODING RI. hahaha.

that's all,

Beth

Just Dial and Call...

Phew. So our sink backed up yesterday. We flipped the garbage disposal on and it started to come out the adjacent sink. Talk about gross. Kyle left me in charge of calling the front office so maintenance can come by and look at it, but I was chickening out every single time. I had no idea if that was protocol -- to just call them and have them come 'fix it'. But finally I sucked up my fears and just dialed the number and hit send. no turning back now. I fumbled in the beginning sputtering out my name and apartment and rambling on about my broken sink, and finally managed to ask after gasping for air "can you send someone from maintenance? maybe they will know what to do?" and after all my rambling and going on and on and fretting I get a "sure thing, bye"

And that was that. Now we just wait for the maitence man and all will be glorious and then I will be able to do my dishes once again, and run the dishwasher. Even better.

OH and my lovely roommate (or rather exroommate now) Fran is coming to visit for a little bit. She was in VA beach and she, craig, and jared are swinging by on their journey home. (They took a road trip for spring break, how fun!)

That's about all today, except I managed to stick it through the whole zumba class. Granted towards the end I was half assing it and skipping moves here and there, but you gotta do what you gotta do. =) I'm still proud of myself. Go me!

One year down, 9 more to go...

I turned 21 on March 19th. It wasn't much but it was a birthday. It was a gorgeous day so that was a plus. The night didn't turn out exactly, or anything, like I had planned but it was still nice in the end. I spent it with kyle watching home movies. Nothing exciting --I know, but it was nice nonetheless.

So I haven't written in FOREVER. Gah. I always do this. I say I will write more, 'everyday, I swear!' then everyday turns into every few months or so. Everything has been going very well in my life lately. But let me back up to November where I left off. At the end of October I got out of the hospital feeling great for about two days. Then after about 4 days I was hacking up a storm, throwing up again, running fevers. It was up-surd. I chalked it up to catching a cold the kids brought home. Well, I went on this antibiotic, and that antibiotic, and did this, and that, and nothing. NO results. I was still sick. I was miserable. Moody, Gross, Sick. I went home for two weeks with kyle, and those two weeks were miserable. I couldn't do anything. I had a breakdown because I wanted to go sledding with everyone and I couldn't bring myself to go because I knew I wasn't going to be able to walk up the hill. I was at a real low point. As soon as I got back to Virginia I packed a bag for clinic, and was admitted. I stayed for 2 weeks, and I started to feel amazing again. My fev1 hit the 70's! But then dropped back to 67, ah well, what can you do. But this admission my bloodsugars were in the 400's! EEK. I started receiving insulin to calm things down while on steroids. But after the steroids were done my sugars were still going high, so the endocrinologist had the 'talk' with me, and sent me home with a crash course on diabetes and doing at home insulin.

I was terrified, to say the least, to leave the hospital. I sooooo did not want to go out into that nasty world with all it's germs, because I was afraid that I was going to have a repeat of October. Well, eventually they kicked me out, haha literally my Insurance was none to thrilled to have me stay all 14 days. hehe they called on the 12th, and the 13th day of my stay trying to kick me out, but my Docs had my back and put them in their place. Thanks doc!! =)

Well, I was feeling AWESOME when I left the hospital, terrified, but awesome. I had finally gained some weight (about 10 lbs!!!!) and was able to climb stairs, walk without huffing and puffing, and I was mentally soaring.

While my life was going so swimmingly, my sister's was not. She was having a hard time in the hospital back home, so I flew up to be supportive. Let's just say I won't be doing that again, not only was I not appreciated and ignored, but after all my stressing and anxiety to get there, it was not worth it, and I caught a cold in the airport coming back. Lets just say I will not be flying ANYTIME soon. They are just bad news all over.

FREAKING out with this cold, I went to clinic. They said not to stress too much, but if it got any worse call sooner rather than later. 5 days after the cold symptoms were gone, but I was still feeling like poo I called and went back to clinic. BOOM antibiotics, still freakin' out. This was October all over again. BUT this time, I felt different because I knew I had caught it before it was too late. I was just begginning to get sick, rather than being sick already, so I was hopeful that the antibiotics would do their trick and kick out those bad buggies. Sure enough, three weeks later and I'm feeling great!

Now some tidbits to get you up to speed on my general life:

*I joined the YMCA and have started taking Zumba, Hip-Hop Aerobics (SO FUN) and turbokick. They give me something to do during the day and make me exercise. I'm also hoping to find a friend out of this deal. But we'll see about that one.

*I now have 2 ferrets! We got a female ferret and named her Duck Duck (so now we have Duck Duck and Goose. hehe) although she's quite a whimp. Goose will try to play with her and she'll just chirp away (she makes a ton of noise, which is unusual for a ferret) and play dead. Sigh, she'll eventually learn. She's super cute and loves to cuddle!

*I started to volunteer at the animal shelter. Again more exercise. And it cures my puppy desires. I just go and walk some doggies and then fulfill my desire to have a puppy and go home. haha it's a great system. They like the attention, I like the attention, and I don't have to worry about them chewing up my shoes.

*I haven't heard anything about my SSI case, which is pissing me off. It's been 6 months and then some since I've filed my last appeal -- the one before you actually go to court. So I've been sitting around for 6 months waiting to hear that I have a court date... but no such luck. Nada. GRRRR.

*I took a break from school. Which is really nice, because I detest school with a passion. Unfortunately I can only take the break till April 30th, and I start school again on May 1st. Bummer. And have to continue with school until I can get SSI but seeing the pace as that's moving, that will be NEVER. GRRRR again.

*the weather in VA is getting really nice. It's awesome to have an actual springtime. The trees are all in bloom mode, the ones with flowers are so pretty. Lots of different colors: pinks, whites, even purples. Although the white ones smell like dead fish, a little less pretty.

Hm that's about it.

Maybe I'll write tomorrow, who knows, maybe I'll write next month. Can't say?